With the first 2 months of 2011 over, I figured I should write an update. January and February have been crazy busy!! In the nine weekends in January and February, I was busy for six of them. I haven't had a weekend to myself in a month, and will only have one weekend to myself in the next six weeks.....Now if you are thinking this sounds "
debbie downerish" you are 100% right....I am burnt out and it makes me sad, it makes me even more sad that I have been feeling this way for a few weeks.
Focusing on the positive:
- January 15th & 16th was the American Masterpiece competition where all of our teams finished in the top 4. We took 1 4th, 3 bronze, 1 silver, 1 gold and a grand championship. We also took the large program award. This means we were the highest scoring large program of the competition.
- February 4th - 6th I spent some time at my Aunt Sheila's cabin in Donner Lake.
- February 12th & 13th we took 4 of our 9 teams to Americas Best. We walked away with one third, one second, and two FIRSTS.
- February 26th we took all nine teams to JAMLIVE. It was a great competition for us. We walked away with a fifth, one second, and FIVE FIRSTS as well as two level championships. Energy won the "showstopper" award, Amp'd won "best music", Adrenaline won "best tumbling" and Hannah, Brianna and Brittany won individual awards.
- I started working out at Gold's on February 28th and have been every day since.
- I got an e-mail today from my boss at the hospital letting me know she thinks I am "The BOMB"
- I got a couple other e-mails from co-workers at the hospital praising some work I had done last week.
- I spent a couple fun nights recently with some non work - non cheer friends.
- My very good friend Amanda is helping me to plan a FABULOUS 30th birthday party
With all that being said, I still seem to be burnt out and in a funk. I can't even really put my finger on what is bothering me. It seems like things that's normally don't bother me are annoying the shit out of me. I am waking up with a bad attitude on days that I should have a great attitude.
I am very proud of my kids and their accomplishments, and I am proud of my accomplishments in the gym and at work. Working out is helping and being back at the hospital after my 5 days off seems to help, or at least its keeping my mind busy. I feel like I am needed at the hospital and that the work I am doing is appreciated. Nurturing my outside of work and cheer friendships is helping to lighten my mood, and having Amanda invest some of her own time in helping me plan really helps......Still the funk is there.
Normally when I feel annoyed by everything it means I am tired, so I sleep and it goes away. I think I am getting enough sleep but I still feel annoyed.
Whatever this funk is...It needs to go the funk away! I am not a depressed person and I don't let stupid little things get to me. I don't let people treat me badly or talk down to me. I've lived my life "doing me and being me" So what changed? When will it change back?!?!?!?!?
It's starting to annoy me that I am so annoyed!
Really, I'm a pretty lucky girl. I have a warm roof over my head, food in my fridge, a great car, 2 awesome jobs, & friends and family who love me....I really should remember that. Sometimes the funk is a little too strong.
Here's to hoping the funk moves on to someone else!!
